where’s the better part of me?

another one, a secret has revealed. I just can’t help the feeling knowing the truth. God please help me! Give me the strength to face all the facts of our past. I love her, I swear I do. but my itchy hand and brain seem to be out of my control. help me to think positively, guide me out of this darkest tunnel in my life, show me a better future. please illuminate the better part of me.

P.S: Girl, I love you even more than before. promise me it won’t happen again.