i miss you mom. please teach me how to be strong, i really love her from the bottom of my heart.

Me and my itchy hand and brain so not ready for the consequences. Curiosity leads up to anger and jealousy. The kind of sensation where you totally can’t accept the facts that’s been revealed slowly over time. I wish I could just simply forget them.

You have been trying your best to convince and make me happy. I could always see that in your eyes nowadays, how lovely. I am never forget to thank Him how blissful I am to have you now. It’s just me the problematic guy, it’s always been me who are wobbly. pardon me.

P.S: It’s 12.07pm and I still can’t sleep, love. I just don’t want to wake you up as I know I won’t be able to sleep but to totter around. I’ll be okay. i love you

Back to you, it always comes around. Yes, it moves in circles. Stop being a loser by having a narrow minded mind.

I have not tried my best yet, and of course I will never know if I stop here. She fixed me. She fixed the broken little wire in my brain. Thank you , love. Thank you for your patience, support and beliefs in me. I love you.

P.S: you will never fail till you stop trying. Everything will be well-turned when the time is right.

merry christmas …

Day after day, time pass away. They come and go just to leave memories in our daily lives. I’m flicking through a little book of my memories and recap. I guess what she said was right, why can’t I just be grateful of what I have now and appreciate them as gifts in my life. I guess my heart was fogged by the past and it makes my vision unclear. I couldn’t see the real thing, the reality I’m living now.

He’s fair, I know he’s being fair to everyone. I never felt the way I do now. The Christmas breathtaking sensation was simply superb. If I were to ask what is the most precious thing I ever had? my answer will simply be you. Thank you for the failed surprises as you didn’t manage to duplicate my keys :D Thank you for the sewed ‘F’ on the lovely sweater, ‘R’ on the winked flannel shirt, meaningful love chocolate, and the C with strong A smell thingy. hahaa! I really thank you for what you have done for me, for my little Christmas.

Dinner oh dinner.. what a failed start when the taxi driver lost at Dempsey Road. Sigh, I feel like whacking up that fella. The restaurant was filled with tense. She got nervous till she ignored me and busy playing with my phone. me? oh yes, I look like a retard with all the cool acts. I looked left and right, up and down, rolled my eyes like a perfect comedian. dope! zzzz.. Suck appetizer, she just got a bite of idontknowwhatthatshit called and I couldn’t finish my dontknowwhat soup. We waited for minutes, almost half an hour for the main course. Her tummy was rumbling and asking for foods. haha..the waiter came to our table and had a little chat.

The waiter: “Are you ready for the main course, SIR?”
Fandra Kepo: “YES PELASE”

TWENTY-SIX SECONDS OF SILENCE … haha *exaggerate a bit ok love? :D

Dope main course and desserts, at least not as screwed as the appetizer. Oh ya, I forgot to mention how cool I was by ordering a glass of wine, a pint of dontknowhwwat beer and ice water. Oh yes, if only whoever reads my post see our table. haha, it was fully filled with drinks! NONO, I will not forget to mention this too, “Can I order coke? it’s like the only drink I familiar with” hahahaha..

WE ARE THE JOKES OF EMBARRASSMENT.

P.S: Love, I’ll be away from you in hours. Please do remember our promises, your words and my words. We just began our new love story and we will live it the way we want it to be. You know what, I’m so glad you remember many of my words and here I come with my words of promise “She is happy with me” (: Happy first monthiversary, love. I love you so much! thank you for making up my vision clear, for you, me and us.

i can never show you how much i love you. no words could ever described how much you meant to me. we fight, we kiss. we’ll be okay in hours. Neither you nor I am can bear the feeling of losing each other’s heart. the feeling of not hearing each other’s voice in a day. the feeling of missing each other’s presence. I guess we are in love. All the arguments and quarrels, I know we can work them out.

P.S: I never loved a girl the way I love you. You’re just, different.

FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF!! PLEASE GET THE HELL OUT OF MY MIND! FUCK OFF!!!!!!

where’s the better part of me?

another one, a secret has revealed. I just can’t help the feeling knowing the truth. God please help me! Give me the strength to face all the facts of our past. I love her, I swear I do. but my itchy hand and brain seem to be out of my control. help me to think positively, guide me out of this darkest tunnel in my life, show me a better future. please illuminate the better part of me.

P.S: Girl, I love you even more than before. promise me it won’t happen again.